What should I be doing?

I know I have done a similar post to this in the past, but I got thinking again today and here you go, here’s another post.

 

Every now and then, I sit at my work computer and wonder what I am doing with this job. I won’t go in to exactly what I do, but it involves analysis etc. I graduated with a Bachelor of Business with an Economics major. Was this what I wanted to do? No. I started off wanting to be a Nurse, then decided I didn’t like the hours. I moved on to Landscape Architecture then wondered where exactly that idea came from and eventually landed on International Relations. Luckily, of those three ideas I only started a degree in one, International Relations. After a year, I wanted to move home to Sydney and transferred in to the Bachelor of Business when I realised a Bachelor of IR wouldn’t get me very far.

 

I’ve never had the overwhelming desire to land myself in any field. I never desperately wanted to be a Nurse, I never even thought about the job I’m in now. Not once did I think ‘yeah, being an analyst would be amazing’. I fell in to this job and while I am really grateful to be here and can see myself here for this chapter of my life, I can’t see myself here forever.

 

Over the past year or so, I’ve started to explore my hobbies a little more, hoping that maybe one day I can create an income from them. I know I love to help people, I know I am caring and like writing, sewing and taking photos. But I don’t know if I like any of them enough to make a job of it. The thought of re-skilling doesn’t appeal too much, so I want to focus on the skills I have now, to find out what it is that I should be doing in life. I often get the feeling that I am not where I am supposed to be. Maybe right now I am, but not for the long run, but I also find it hard to pinpoint where it is I should end up. I guess I am no clairvoyant :-P

 

One of the hobbies I have come to enjoy is writing. I know I am not all that consistent on this blog, or my new one for that matter (I blame Bali and my laptop cord breaking!) but those are not the only platforms that I explore writing. I am not a great writer, but I try often to explore my style, try new styles and better myself in general. I don’t have great hopes that this will lead to a job or income, but if it’s something I love to do, then why not spend time doing it.

 

I love to hear stories of how people ended up in their career, or how they have made money from their hobbies or previous jobs or even what their hobbies are (regardless of if you make money because money isn’t everything).

 

So, go ahead and tell me your story.

 

Do you have a business you run? Did you always want to be in the career you're in or did you 'fall' in to it? Do you want to be doing something else?

Why I don't care what's in your travel bag

I find it interesting when people write posts about what’s in their travel/hand bags. While I do enjoy reading them, I never go away and think ‘wow, I am going out today to buy those things’ and within ten minutes, I’ve forgotten what they even wrote.

 

The reason for this post was that I was going to write a ‘what’s in my travel bag’ ahead of my trip to Bali this week. I sat there, thinking of how to structure the post and then thought to myself, ‘no-one gives a shit what you’re taking to Bali’. The thought process went on to conclude that 1. No-one gives a shit and 2. Writing about it just makes me someone that’s rubbing in the fact that I am going away and they are probably not. Which is a bit sad really, isn’t it?

 

People don’t come here to read what’s in my bag, although I don’t really know what people do come here to read. It’s never been a very ‘informative’ blog, but rather a blog about day to day happenings.

So instead of telling you what’s in my bag because let’s be honest here, I haven’t even packed it, I’ll tell you about my new blog, The Riz.

I started The Riz recently as a way for me to enhance my writing skills because I love writing. I felt with Ebb and Flow that I had carved out a community that wanted to know about me and what I am up to etc. and changing that to the new path I wanted to take didn’t feel like the right thing to do. The Riz will take a more informative approach, with less personal stuff about me and more about places, cafes, restaurants, travel, fashion etc. I haven’t thought of the exact path yet because I am of the belief that you carve that out as you build your blog and so I can’t tell you what exactly to expect. I haven’t decided how personal I will make it, if at all. It may or may not feature ‘what I packed’ for holidays, because I feel that sort of post is better suited to that blog.

 

I’m not sure if any of that makes sense, and maybe it doesn’t need to just yet. I am just trying to find my feet in writing and in my writing style and this way; I can approach it from two angles. I will still write here, at Ebb and Flow because I do enjoy documenting my life and interacting with those that come back to read the blog. I don’t know how often I will write here because life is busy and I now have two blogs to update. Although, when I say busy I don’t mean busy full of exciting things because if that was the case, I’d blog about it. It’s just busy in general full of stuff people don’t particularly want to read about and so my presence here has dwindled of late.

 

I know when I read blogs in the past; I loved the personal aspect and what people were doing in their day to day lives. What I like to read has shifted slightly and while I’ll keep going back to read my favourite blogs, I have also added others to the list that take a different approach. I enjoy reading about fashion, how to do things, tips on restaurants, travel tips etc. Since I enjoy reading about it, I felt like it was something I could contribute to, as well.

 

Anyway, I have rambled on long enough here. Please do pop by The Riz and have a look if you get time. I welcome any (constructive!) feedback, too. There isn’t much there just yet, but stay tuned and there will more posts up shortly.

To be married

I read a blog post recently on what it was like for that blogger to be married to her Husband.

 

While I’ve only been married for a few months, S and I have been together for a long time, so I feel like I can comment on what it’s like to know marriage and know my Husband.

 

Since we got married, S has worked a lot. By a lot, I mean that sometimes he isn’t home until I am in bed and he’s also had to work some weekends. For a while, I wondered if I’d ever have a normal marriage again where I got to see him every night…until I realised that there is no ‘normal’. This is a season we are going through. He works hard for the business he works for and we reap the rewards in the long run. Just because life is busy now, doesn’t mean it will be busy always. And so we learn to let life run its course while adapting and changing to accommodate, rather than fight against the changes.

 

And so, to know what it is to be married and be in a relationship with S.

 

- I know when the alarm goes off, he’ll still sleep in for another 10 minutes.
- I know that he loves good food just as much as me.
- I will watch the strange movies he picks because I know he enjoys them.
- To know that when he comes home from work, he’ll have a little yogurt to tie him over until dinner.
- To laugh at his jokes.
- To not be able to breathe from laughing at his jokes.
- To know that without his morning coffee, his mood will be down.
- To always take his coins.
- To know when I need encouragement, he will give it freely and honestly.
- To know when I need support, he is there.
- To have a fan that knows everything about me.
- To be a family. To share a home.
- To annoy him and know that he won’t snap.
- To chat all day long and still have stuff to talk about when we get home.

 

And so much more.

 

Being married to S is wonderful and I can't wait to see how the chapters in our life turn out.

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Here is a cute photo of sheep I took in Joadja.

1. With just over a week to go until I head off to Bali, I haven’t even started packing my bag. I am what I would call an unorganised traveller. Once I get the accommodation and flight booked, everything else takes a back seat. I still need currency, travel insurance and to pack my bag. Maybe I will do that this week, but it’s more likely to be done the day before if we’re being honest. Anyway, this trip can’t come soon enough. My motivation at work is so low at the moment and I need a relaxing break. New Zealand was good, but days of skiing aren’t exactly relaxing.

2. A few of my electronics decided to die within a week of each other. My kindle broke in New Zealand, I dropped my phone in water (although, surprisingly it’s still working just fine. Do they take time to die?) and my laptop cord died. All of my charger cords seem to fray and then die. Is this just me? Why do my cords fray? I wrap them properly, I think!

3. I am so lazy at the moment. No exercise (I can’t run until my knee heals properly, but that’s no excuse not to do other stuff), no working on my little project and no doing the other things I love. I can also chalk it up to being busy, but I feel like I keep saying ‘I’ll do that tomorrow’ and then a week has passed and I haven’t done anything. Where is my motivation at?

 

How has everyone else been?